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The waves crash upon the rocks

The wind blows throughout my hair

I watch the sky as it turns dark

I’m all alone out there



I walk alone all quiet

Back to the white car

There is no one around me

They are not close, but far



I am quite alone

And cold from the breeze

I wish for you to warm me

As the wind flows through the trees



The water splashes on me

As I walk slowly by

I sigh for a little while

I feel like I need to cry



The mist of the waves

Are cool against my face

I wish to run away from here

Away from this depressing place



I wish for you at this time

To hold me in your arms

To feel your warmth upon me

And away from all harms



I wish for you to be with me

As I walk the lonely trail

To be able to hold hands with you

And hope that it’ll never fail



I’m all alone right now

At this beach with no one here

I make it to the parked car

As friends come ever near



We get into the car

I wipe my eyes dry

And as I think about you

I begin to cry



You don’t even know this

But I care for you a lot

It is in fact quite secretive

But you’re really all I’ve got



I wish for you to sit with me

And company me a little

For you to take away my loneliness

So I will not be brittle



Because I feel as if I’ll break

For I’ve been hurt a lot

You really are my only chance

I think I can be without you, not

I see him walking through the hall,

I try, but can't make a sound at all.

He passes me without a glance,

I wish I had taken a chance



To talk to him

About how he throws the ball over the rim.

To say he's a great player,

And to many people, a savior.



I see you,

But you don't see me.

I love you,

But you don't love me.



His eyes are crystal, and I love his hair,

His skin is perfect; nice and fair.

I watch him quietly every day,

Yet I let him pass and go on his way.



I love him with all my heart,

Even though we're not together, but apart.

I really want to hold his hand,

But I let him go to play in his band.



I see you,

But you don't see me.

I love you,

But you don't love me.



I look at him all the time,

But I doubt he would, even for a dime.

He's really sweet and really kind,

I just wish that he was forever mine.



I see him enter from my seat,

Should I stand up and greet?

I get up to do what I must do,

"Hey there. I'm great, how are you?"

When I see you

Everything is bliss

When I'm with you

I always wish to kiss



You have taken my heart

Screw boys

I have you

You are the means of my joys



I love you

And you love me

Even though you're shared

We will always be



I constantly sit

And think about you

I don't see you that often

You know this is true



But the more

That we are apart

My love for you

Increases in my heart



Our slight separation

Of us being busy with our lives

Makes my love for you strong

Unable to be cut by knives



Forever I will be yours

And forever you will be mine

I love you with all my heart and more

And this will last till the end of my time



Ryan, mine you will always remain

Rejected

One time

Two times

A third



I know that this

Will always be true

For I am not of many

But of a few



The few that will never

Have anyone to care

Have anyone to love

Have something to share



No one ever

Sees me as right

The one to kiss

And hold at night



My heart has been torn

In so many pieces

My internal soul power

Constantly decreases



The true me wishes

To be released

The urge to let go

Is constantly increased



The will to show

How I really feel

The want to prove

What's the real deal



The real me

Wants to die

Keeping things inside

Makes me cry



The feeling of being

Crushed to a pulp

Sounds really good

I really need some help

Feeling pretty good

About how things could be

Seeing as how we pretty much

Shared some feelings



Or so I thought



I speak to him

The boy that has

Taken my heart

But now ripped it apart



Could things get worse



I talk with him

This boy I like

He speaks of who

He likes right now



It's totally not me



He speaks about

This person a bit

Saying he's talking to them

But not at that time



And I was talking



I get sad

Feelings of hurt

Of being turned down

How could this happen



Why is it always me



I head to my bedroom

Sulk for a while

Grab my sheet of paper

And a mechanical pencil



I have the need to write

On the outside

I may be crazy

But on the inside

I am losing control



I feel my life

Will never be perfect

Never be how

It'd like it to be



I wish I'd find

That right boy

And not be sad

Or feel unloved



I hate being like this

All lonely and shit

But I guess that this

Is how it should be



When will it be

Back to the way it was

When will I be happy again

Free from this hurt



This pain

This crap

This world

This fucking thing you call

Life

My heart is empty

My heart is not whole

My life feels worthless

Like it doesn't belong



My body deep inside

Is burning

Burning away in a deep red fire

That will never go out



Burning with a sting

A sting

The sting of being crushed

Crushed with the force of a thousand tons



I feel as if I'll never be loved

Hopes

My hopes are those of an orphan's

The feeling of no one wanting them



Never to be held

Never to be kissed

Never to be thought about

Never to be heard



Never to be

Yours

Every night I look out my window

Wishing for him to come

I see all the cars go

As I mess with my gum



"I wish I could see him

More than once a day

Not real close, across the gym

With everyone else in the way"



I love him

This kid called Jim

With all my heart

Don't leave us apart



I saw him today

He didn't even glance

At my way

Please give me a chance



Someone come shoot me

Come tie me to a chain

Things will never be

Help get rid of this pain



I love him

This kid called Jim

With all my heart

Don't leave us apart



When I get home

I grab a razor

And I stab myself with a comb

Someone shoot me, shoot me with a laser



I cover each wound

And forget they are there

I walk into my room

And hug my teddy bear



I love him

This kid called Jim

With all my heart

Don't leave us apart



Can't he tell

That I love him?

I shoot the shell

"Thanks a lot, Jim"



I looked around as things get dark

And memories pass of me as a kid

Playing at the school play park

I now regret what I just did



I love him

This kid called Jim

With all my heart

Don't leave us apart

I love him a lot.

I see him everyday.

I can be without him, not.



My mind is in a knot.

I always look his way.

I love him a lot.



I sometimes get caught.

"What are you looking at, May?"

I can be without him, not.



I wish my thought,

Of us would be true someday.

I love him a lot.



In a way I wasn't taught,

I think of him all day.

I can be without him, not.



I try to not

Think of him today.

I love him a lot.

I can be without him, not.

I stare at your picture on the wall

And I begin to fall.



I fall deeper and deeper,

Everything's becoming steeper.



I try to climb up,

But I let go and fall into the dump.



I cry and cry,

The ground beneath will never be dry.



I feel extreme pain,

As if I was being slain.



The sun will never rise

And your eyes will never meet my eyes.



My heart has either been torn apart,

Or stabbed by a dart.



I stare at your picture on the wall

And I begin to fall...

Every day

The skies are grey

When I am without you

I am sad

And I am mad

When I am without you

I am never glad

Always sad

When I am without you

The rain falls down

Onto the ground

When I am without you

I always cry

My eyes are never dry

When I am without you

I lie in bed

And I feel dead

When I am without you

All this pain you put me through

Comes out making people think I am mean and cruel

When I am without you